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Tuesday, September 29, 2009
29.09.09 everytime i look at your seat, you'll look back at me, smiling, and laughing. occasionally pointing at your phone cos you smsed me. but now. now... when i look at your seat, it's empty. no more smiles, no more laughter, no more pointing to handphones. best. i'll really miss you. i'll never ever be able to forget you. :( today. today will be the day you leave me in tears. the amount of tears i've shed alr can't be counted. really. today. it will be the day i say my final goodbyes to you. and to give you my well wishes and a virtual hug. today. today will be the day you fly off. i wish you BON VOYAGE , and to reach safely there. and to take care of yourself well. today. today will be the day i cry the most. cos you won't be there for me anymore when i need you. today. today is the day when all of us will cry our hearts out. you're not here in 1e4 anymore. we'll all miss you. especially me. i don't know how life will be like without you. today. it will be the last day i can say goodbye to you, and to give you a virtual hug. it's also the last day i can give you my well wishes. today. is the day i looked past your empty seat, and almost cried. i could imagine you seating there, turning your head around to talk to amira, turning your head to look at me and smiling, passing a note to me, smiling cheekily at me, laughing your head off, disturbing amira, complaining to me about teachers, lastly, laughing at teachers. i will really miss these times. you're leaving tonight. but i can't do anything more than wish you all the best, and hope you make best friends with people there. now, i can only think of you by my side, laughing with me, and you just standing there comforting me. whenever i feel like crying, i'll imagine you yst. your thumb, on my face, wiping away the tear i shed, telling me not to cry. i'll remember that. remember that you don't like me to cry, don't like to have teary farewells. i remember. that's why i'll try to stop. best, i miss you. the feeling of you being gone from my life is excruciating. i don't know how long i'm going to have to endure before i can see you again. everytime i miss you, i look at the class photo and stare at your face for a long, long time. i look at dbsk poster. i look at your picture of me and you. i look at your picture in my phone. i look at the small, short, but sweet card that you gave me for my birthday: to my tall nicole <3 these memories will NEVER cease from my heart. i'll remember these, and YOU forever. i won't be ungrateful and not remember you. everything reminds me of you so much. that sometimes i just break into tears uncontrollably. i know it's weird, but it's true. sometimes i'd wonder if everything about you leaving me is fake, and that i'll wake up the next morning finding myself in sch, with you pulling me or poking me, laughing with me, and calling: NICOLE AHHHHH ~ but all these are just a facade. it's the truth, and there's no running away from reality. it's the truth that you're leaving tonight. it's the truth that you're leaving me behind here, while you go study overseas. it's the truth that you'll miss me, but not as much as i miss you. it's the truth that we'll forever be best friends, and that fact will never change. i really really miss you. i really really <3 you. |
 NICOLE CRACKERS My day's on 05.06. My best friend's separated from me She's PARK JI IN i love you, baby. i love my friends and clique (: i love my awesome seniors and the best CCA on earth; THE INTERACT CLUB. i'm insanely in love with kpop am not linking anyone (: i'm lazy. :/ |